About the book
- Shortlisted for the Ottawa Book Award
- Upper Canada Writers' Craft Award Finalist
About the author
Born and raised in Kitchener, Ontario, Susan Zettell has lived in Cambridge, Vancouver, Halifax, Ottawa and Whitehorse. She now lives in Cape Breton with her husband, Andy Watt.
Susan is the author of the novel The Checkout Girl, as well as two short story collections, Night Watch and Holy Days of Obligation. Her stories have been anthologized in Quintet, Spider Women, The Day the Men Went to Town and The Company We Keep. She edited, along with Frances Itani, the posthumous story collection One of the Chosen by Danuta Gleed.
from from "Justine & Rockette"
In January, Justine began wandering the aisles of grocery stores. She returned misplaced items to their rightful homes. They were waiting to be rescued, she thought. Like her, they were marooned, red onions weathering tinned ravioli storms.
And it was in January that Justine began to mutilate bread. Before Terry left, but during the time she knew he was going, their love a waning moon almost invisible. She bore a constant indefinable weight in her chest, which drew her shoulders down and pressed into her arms, made them heavy. Every time she came to the bakery aisle the weight spread into her wrists, pushed her hands toward the aromatic white bread, its flesh so soft, so inviting.
Each slender loaf fit within the spread of her wide palm. Her fingers wrapped over its edges, around its sides. What next but to squeeze? So she squeezed and squeezed and squeezed. The bread yielded. Then gently, ever so gently, she placed it back on the shelf.
Each time she crushed bread she felt the thing that had been her heart, the weight that took up all of the space in her chest, begin to contract. And she would sigh, air forced from her lungs as if it was her last breath. A prayer-like exhalation: My heavy heart. My sinking heart. Oh, I'm losing heart.
"Stop it!" the baker shouted the last time Justine crushed bread.
"What?" Justine asked, and she looked the baker in the eye. His eyes were blue, almost turquoise, the same shade as the sky-and-sea icing on the children's birthday cakes. She turned to leave.
"You're hurting my bread," the baker wailed. He picked up a crushed loaf, dangled it like a football from his hand.
She began to run down the bakery aisle toward the cash registers and the electronic door.
"Everybody squeezes bread," she shouted over her shoulder.
The door popped open. The baker followed her, then stopped. The door closed behind him.
"It's your handprint," he said, and he turned the bread in his hand like a dying thing, then cradled it in his arm.
"Don't come back!" Justine heard him shout as she closed her car door.
Terry left in February. Now it is April and instead of mutilating bread, Justine checks the due date slips in the back of library books. It doesn't hurt anyone. She doesn't read the books. These days fiction puts her to sleep. Non-fiction is too real and sad. Or too harrowing.
What she likes is the texture of books, their heft, the cool feel of a just-turned page against her cheek. She likes the sharp lines on the due date slips, the dates contained in neat black rows. An orderly list of expectation, of fulfilled responsibility. A hopeful progression through time, so patient, almost tender.
One of the books she took out of the library yesterday was published in 1993. The library received it in September. Six people took it out that year. Seventeen in 1994. Four in '95, six in '96, two in '97, two in '98, none in '99. Now it's April 2000. Justine took the book out just so the date could be stamped in it. She and Rockette are going to return it later today, after Justine finishes some letters for Marco.
This morning Marco dropped off thirty profiles for letters. Marco runs an international adopt-a-foreign-child rip-off.
"One more year and I'll be able to retire," he told Justine as he set the profiles on her desk. "Freedom fifty-eight." Marco places ads in local papers throughout North America to link do-gooders with foreign kids. The kids are fakes, figments of Marco's imagination. And Justine's too. Marco pays her poorly.
"You're complicit, Justine," he tells her if she complains about the pay. Twenty cents a word. Sweatshop wages.
"Why do you work for Marco?" Terry used to ask her. "He pays you shit and the work's illegal. It could get us both in trouble."
Terry works for an investment firm: Andrews, McAuley, Trope. Justine had worked there too, researching new technology companies. Until she moved in with Terry and he worried that it might appear to be a conflict of interest if they both worked at the same firm, in the same office. Terry always worried about the way things would or would not appear.
"I'll switch to ventures," Justine said.
"I'll support you until you find a new job," Terry promised, appearing to be a supportive lover.
Justine said, no, she'd find a job, and she'd use her savings to pay her share of expenses until she did.
But she didn't find a job. And she used up all of her savings. Terry did support her. For a while. Until she asked him to stop. Until he started to complain and make Justine feel as if she wasn't doing enough to find a job. Until she started a company writing letters and résumés, and helping clients to set up business profiles and to design advertising flyers. But there were never enough clients and there was never enough money. Until Marco came along. That's when Terry really started complaining.
Marco collects the proceeds from the adoptions and banks them in a special account. He uses some of the money for travel to exotic destinations where he takes photographs of the poorest people he can find. Field work, he calls it. Making sure everything is running smoothly. He managed to obtain charitable status, has the required number of board members (all friends, some of whom travel on the organization's account, too). He hired Justine to look after the paperwork. Marco invents the profiles of the kids: family, country of origin, circumstances. He pays Justine to type these, and to compose and type the letters from the children. "They need a woman's touch," he said.
He brings her onionskin paper, slightly musty and a bit stained. All the letters are typed on an old Underwood with a sticky "p" and "r". Dear Hampton Family, a letter will begin, the outline of the "r" and the "p" a reverse Braille, shadows pressed into paper. The paper smells like mildew softened with a hint of wood smoke and sandalwood.
"The Body Shop," Marco told her when she asked about the sandalwood. "Do-gooders love sandalwood from The Body Shop. Reminds them of their hippie days. Wood stoves, dope, incense and shit."
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